The subject of kids came up.  « You don’t want any? » she had asked. I insensitively said I didn’t know but likely not. Motherhood had never been a priority nor a life requirement for me.

The subject of kids came up.  « You don’t want any? » she had asked. I insensitively said I didn’t know but likely not. Motherhood had never been a priority nor a life requirement for me.

The subject of kids came up. “You don’t want any?” she had asked. I insensitively said I didn’t know but likely not. Motherhood had never been a priority nor a life requirement for me. The biological desire comes in waves but the desire fades quickly when I remind myself of all the crazy adventures I … Continue reading

Slowing down with a concussion

Slowing down with a concussion

It took me getting a second concussion to slow my mind and body entirely again. I. Just. Can’t . Seem. To. Stop. Unless a brain injury or the likes FORCES me to stop. I never rest my brain – ever. I’m always doing , thinking , moving . I’m a freaking machine trapped in a … Continue reading

Love is a verb

Love is a verb

Getting inspired by John Mayer here but I can’t press this enough –> “Love ain’t a thing, love is a verb.” I’ve spent countless lonely Christmases filled with expensive jewelry from men that “loved” me and gifts that were given to me but had no real meaning. It was never given from the heart but … Continue reading

Tell me about your anger problems

Tell me about your anger problems

It’s funny how you can’t help to feel like your problems are the biggest burden in the world and then you watch some crazy fucked up movie about rape, murder, police stations being blown up, people getting thrown out of windows and all the anger in the world gathered into a smart witty plot and … Continue reading

The Eel part 1

The Eel part 1

You were a sharpened knife Ready to carve Short and quick Coward to the bone    At devil’s reach  I became raw meat Burst of cries and lies An eel came to kiss me I raided the closet Never to return I drove home once Accidentally I sat on a park bench Transiently  Craving for … Continue reading

Unconditional numbness

Unconditional numbness

What he gives you is nothingness. It is self-serving, a degrading form of lust – if you can call it that; a deep narcissistic outlook on life that disarms him from even seeing you as a human being. To him, you are a plant, a convenient body he can pleasure himself on. He attempts to … Continue reading